Dusting off the blog

For a while, my keenness for blogging disappeared. Life was far too complex and shitty. W. and I were desperately trying to hold our marriage together. Everything seemed too painful and too fraught to muse about in a public forum, even anonymously.

It had been so long since I had felt like posting, I had pretty much given up on the blog for good, even though I like the name. But suddenly, today, I was imbued with motivation to dust this thing off and start again.

Some recent news and events

• My marriage is over, which saddens me desperately, but the split is amicable, and that's a silver lining of sorts.
• I am out to basically everyone in the world except my son. We don't want him to blame my transition for our separation (though he would be on the right track). So I'm holding tight while he absorbs the separation before I drop the gender change idea in his lap.
• I am on androgen-blockers. They have definitely started to make a difference, but all that does is put me closer, but still agonizingly short or my goal. Female hormones will probably start in mid-summer.
  
• Psychologically, I no longer feel like I'm on a runaway roller coaster every second of every day. Now it's intermittent, and at other times, I actually feel like a functioning person. This is good fucking news! :)